I've been mulling over the best choice of words to use for this post, as I think this is probably the most important one to date.
The Paunch and the Scatterbrain are expecting their first baby!!!!!
We are sooooooooo excited, we can hardly contain ourselves. And that is the reason behind the Heart Stopping, Pulse Raising, Breathless happiness I mentioned in the title!
As of now our baby is 6 weeks old. She is 0.36cm long and has a heart beat of 108 beats per minute!! I say "her" and "she" in the hope that the baby is a girl. Ive always wanted a girl. But I will not know until the baby is born. Sadly, the Indian Govt. rules sex determination as punishable by law. This is because of the high rate in female foeticide in India. How sad!
I had my first ultrasound scan day before yesterday and I was amazed! They were able to pick up the heartbeat of a teeny weeny 0.36cm long foetus. That is by far the most beautiful music I've heard all my life. I heard it only for a few seconds but it reverberates in my mind. I can only thank God for our little miracle!
It was hard for me to believe that I'm actually pregnant. But now that I've heard her, I know I love her. Whether its a girl or a boy, whether she's going to be normal or not, as long as our baby comes to this world, aliver and kicking, we will love her.
I cannot imagine how a mother can allow her baby to be killed. There is such joy in knowing you are a part of the miracle of making a baby! You may call me judgemental, but even a 6 week old foetus is a baby let alone one thats grown to 25 weeks! It is a living person in the process of being made. What authority do we have to take the baby's life? I think abortion equals murder. I've always thought so, and now, my feeling only are stronger.
OK... My post has moved from excitement to anger. Ive been advised by everyone I know to think only happy thoughts. So I guess I'd better stop my train of thoughts there.
As for me, I am happy. I am confident in the knowledge that God knows best. I am assured of my family's support through thick and thin. I am going to be a mother.
Could life get better??? Oh yes! The party has just begun!